Myself, tell me more...

So much more to say!

God is right! He is the beginning and the end. I truly believed. When this implication apply to life, it another story!

Where does the problem started? Who started it? God created everything perfect and right! I am thinking, who fault? We all are faulty to be in the scenario. I am saddened with the beginner. Please do not get me wrong, I am not talking about God. I am talking a man! A man who open the mouth and talk and has never walk the talk. A man who discourage someone to serve God because is not yet time. This is a very stupid thing out from his mouth. Who could be greater than God? Problem, Struggle, Financial, Relationship? Who is greater than those? A man could overcome all problem, finance, relationship? When all this negative things like problem, financial, relationship met our life, who could we turn to? Cigarette or alcohol or maybe drug? For year, this word has never been remove from memory. No way, because I think he said something very wrong. Once a great believer of Jesus, has put his life to Him and decided to look forward for the end of the day because the world has no meant for him. His statement really bring a great hatred unto him. Worst of all, he never realised it.

A man with so many idea of using other to benefit himself. God Loves the world so much and He gave his only son to sacrifice for our sin. Yes! Perfect. This is so meant to him even until today. Not like a man who only used other to benefit himself. He will used whatever word that sound nice and tempted to lure you into his plan. Hmmm... This man never spoken about it even until today regard the thing! How would I define this man. Let me tell you, irresponsible, cover-up and running away. You know why I defined this, because his initial plan failed. If you want me to fully expressed my feeling, I will give a F word. A big, huge and nicely decorated with colour F!

Saddest of all, he only talk and no act. He only command and never serve. He is a "big MAN". "Big man" mean that he is right and no one is right. That is why so many "people" cannot get along with him especially his closest one. The closest one has no admitted his existence, still he blame them for wrongdoing. I am determined and believed this man is wrong. Totally wrong. U know why, because he is the started of the fault, the one who started the root of problem. If he never made his moved, I will never existed.

Please give me peace of mind and a calm heart. I need a comforter, I need support. Self-Generator of support, hope, calm, comfort, peace, and courage is not function. Either give me those word or repair my self-generator of word. PLEASE...

I am crazy with my thought and feeling. Where am I heading to now...? I need concentration, I need more and more to support my daily life. I want to walk with strength, I do not want to crawl with weaknesses. I need wishes... :(