Expire and Renewal

I am expiring every second, minute, hour, day, month, years and ...

I would never know what is gonna to happened next, all I know is current things that affecting me. As I look back into my life, I do see the happiest time and the saddest time, I have a gathering among with groups of friends for a common purpose and share the uncommon things, I remember the day we used to have bicycle race, I remember I was being kick out of the team becuse of my commitment, I could felt the silence because there is a major change goin to taken in my life, Remember the day where I used to ride my bicycle around, though most of the time is the only who ride from uptown to downtown but I treasure the time i given to myself, I remember every weekend I use to go to KL to find some old friends, as time past, things changes where i longer use to travel back and now I miss them. I remember the day where I once again felt the emptiness and the loneliness where nowhere I could go and I could do is hiding at the corner of the empty shop lots battling with my thoughts and feeling, I felt the tough time and struggle with family and relatives, exam, relationship, emotion, and is an ongoing battle until now.

There are more I could feel now but just that I have no time because i need to go out mamak alone again, I used to be alone and myself being the one who affecting my life and the role model always is myself. haha~~ mamak time lo..

The story of my past I could summarized to "MYSELF".

However, I do renewal with every second, minute, hour, day, month, years and ... right after expired.

I am always hoping to see the gray days astray and bright and sunny day take control over it. However, thought and reality always does not agreed to each other. The battle has been long and a high momentum, I no longer scare to face the next renewable. I am tire and throughout the battle and now i feeling more exhausted than ever.

The story of my unpredictable future, I could summarized atm is "Hoping to see tomorrow is a better day".